F*&^% You Universe!

Warning: The following is a negative rant. Read at your own risk.

NB: We are all entitled to have bad moments and despite all the great stuff that happens in our lives, the crappy stuff can still knock us sideways. This is one of those moments.

urlIt’s hard not to think sometimes that life is out to get us. I’ve had so many conversations trying to convince O that her life is not “unlucky,” though I can certainly understand why she would think that: her dad’s death, knee surgery, tragic dog death, unrequited crushes, school struggles, not being accepted to the college of dreams and then last night, just as she’s about to be a hero and fling a ball into a net, another knee gives way.

Other kids become Varsity stars, effortlessly achieve 4.0 GPAs and get into the colleges of their dreams. I’ve run out of platitudes and advice. I sound like a broken record. “It will get better, I promise.” “If you think you are unlucky, you will be unlucky.” “The universe…” Whatever. Frankly, I’m sick of the Universe and its crappy lessons. It breaks my heart to see her so unhappy.

I spent the night worrying about the ridiculously high deductible, her mental health, my mental health and that spring break, her prom, and graduation might all being spent on crutches. We argued this morning over crutches and braces and how much she hates her life.

I don’t have a solution other than to grit my teeth and get through it, whatever comes. She doesn’t either. But it will be messy and stressful and horrible.

C’mon Universe, throw us a bone here.

This concludes today’s breakdown. Regular programming will resume with the next post.

 

NB: 4/2/13 – The ACL is indeed torn. Surgery is in the cards. We’ve decided to schedule it for after Prom.

12 Comments

  1. Anne Marie Higgins March 26, 2013 at 1:55 pm

    Ab,
    It sounds awful. A friend posted something from Mobile Uploads yesterday that I want to share here but can’t F’ing figure out how to do it so I will re-write the quote and hope it makes your day that at least your title of today’s blog belies something positive: “People who use alot of swear words tend to be more honest and trust worthy, human behavioral studies suggest” So there F’ing Universe!!!

  2. Laura March 26, 2013 at 3:47 pm

    Feel like I’ve been in the same boat as O for nearly 2 years. Repeatedly not hired for jobs. Divorce. Health issues. Money concerns.
    I think it’s critical to focus on the many, many positives we each have in our lives, no matter how big (people) or small (spring flowers.) Making a “gratitude list” or writing things on a poster that you are thankful for can be helpful.
    Supportive family?
    Friends that will laugh at anything with you?
    The opportunity to travel?
    Good looks?
    A really cute puppy?
    All of these apply to O.
    So there’s a small start.
    Here’s to good changes asap for us all!

    1. Abigail April 2, 2013 at 9:15 pm

      Lala,

      I know you’re right. We do try to focus on the positives. We have the cute puppy all wrapped up! Travel, check. Beauty, yup. But there are those few moments when it’s hard to see the purpose of it all.

      And of course its been confirmed: A torn ACL in need of surgery. Oh joy.

  3. D. A. Wolf April 2, 2013 at 2:43 pm

    Gritting your teeth and “getting through it” is highly underrated.

    So is cursing out the Universe.

    1. Abigail April 2, 2013 at 9:17 pm

      There are those moments. I just have to keep reminding myself in this land of happy people that it’s OK to “grit” and curse sometimes, dammit.

  4. Ryan Naylor April 2, 2013 at 7:21 pm

    The question is not “How is Life treating you?” but, “How are you treating Life?”

    And while you’re at it, move that butterfly ’cause it’s blocking the view while I type! ;o)

    1. Abigail April 2, 2013 at 9:19 pm

      The butterfly is a pain in the butt, isn’t it? I don’t know how to change it.
      I try to treat life very nicely for the most part by being grateful and whatnot, but sheesh, sometimes I wish the Universe would just lay off already.
      Thanks for you comment, Ryan.

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